Bidding this goodbye

This blog hols lots of memories for me from way back in Sec 3 when I was a baby to now J1, a more mature person. As much as there are many published posts on here, there are that many unpublished posts too, posts where you will find nothing less than my raw vulnerable emotions. And I think I did quite a good job of not displaying them out (what benefit would I get in the end anyways, right?) but just writing it out to get it off my chest and then slowly finding solutions to tame or untangle them.

And right now, for the time being, I am going to bid this blog goodbye. This has been a jolly good ride. 

Till next time, 

Me 

Am I ready again

I took a walk along the familiar road yesterday... The place, the smell, the sights, the noise, everything from start to the end was so familiar yet so distant. Something in me has changed. Things were the same but the feelings weren't. I still hesitated a bit before going in. I wasn't able to completely let my guard down. The greatest impact was her talking to me. I guess she still feels disgusted and annoyed and angry when she see me because I could tell from her face. Besides, it was obvious by her body language anyways. Words may lie but your body never lies.

Despite feeling like this, I observe myself getting better. I am able to control myself a bit more than I could two months back. I am even returning to this blog... I don't want to force myself but I also know it won't do me any good to keep things buried. That's why I am slowly getting back up, slowly building myself up again. I think I have made quite vast improvements the past two months, maybe it's all thanks to that one person. I am glad I got to know him better, he has been a great help in lessons.

Am I really ready again?