I said that I am gonna be using this platform as my memory chest for the last few months of JC2 and I will do just that. I will pen down my thoughts, experiences and reflections honestly here...
The reason I titled this post with such a depressing word is because that’s all I am feeling right now. Today was actually the first day of semester 2 and this whole week is supposed to be Common Test 2. This is my mid year sort of and I had a month long holiday prior to this for the entire month of June. I think we know where this is going... Honestly speaking I did not do any studying and I mean ANY studying at all for like 3/4 of the Hols. And now I am feeling like dying. I wish I was dead. I am so scared right now of how badly I will do and I cannot imagine the consequences. How f***ing stupid was I?!!! I had my first paper H1 Econs today and it was a good paper. That’s because I have always loved economics and have done consistent work through the past semester as well. The last 3-4 days of Hols were also dedicated to revising for it. I am not exactly 100% satisfied but about 70%. But that’s it. That was my one and only good paper. I know, I know my own condition too well. I am like super duper unprepared for the rest of them : Physics, Chemistry and Math (all H2s). At this point though it’s too late to want to pass. I did do work in the past semester but it weren’t as consistent as Econs and I have been doing badly in them always. GG.com
My only solace right now to be very honest is searching up articles of ex Jc students or ex alumis of their similar experiences. I have really reflected today. I cannot drag this laziness on. A levels are in 115/139 days. I need to get my shit together. I have let go of any greed to get a sub pass even for this CT2 but I will definitely start working hard immediately afterwards to prepare for prelims. Prelims start in week 10 of this term. 8 more weeks!!!!!!!! Remedial classes will be my companions in the afternoon heat for the next few weeks I guess...
Monday, 25 June 2018
Thursday, 21 June 2018
JC
Been a long time since I bid this place goodbye :’) I have decided to revive this again for the next few months. This is my safe place where I was able to honestly write out my thoughts and experiences. Through writing them out, I was able to document my growth over a few years. This period in my life now is another turning point and I really want to leave behind a tangible documentary. I thought it’s only fitting that I return back here! Hello @my past readers if you somehow manage to get back here lmao.
Anyways, this is the year 2018 ( and I have officially stepped into my twenties!!! D: Turned 20 this last 3rd June :’D ) and since I last posted in 2016, I have grown a lot more than I had planned to. XD And the next few months, I expect to grow even more. It will be a crazy ride as I prepare for A levels, SAT, BMAT and all the UNI admission processes. Yes, I am finally going uni!!!! I actually did badly in my first year of JC so I repeated in 2017 and only advanced to second year this year. So instead of graduating last year, I am only starting out on my uni admission process now. It took me some time to really come to terms with lagging a year behind but I have really learnt that it’s not about how long it takes me but it’s me getting to the goal at my own pace. And now sometimes I am even glad that I made the decision to stay a year behind because the people I have met in my new batch are so very precious. (Ok lah maybe not people lol like one or two) I have gotten through my second time first year very smoothly all thanks to my new clique in my new class. I couldn’t be more grateful to them. But the last six months this year though have been pretty different. Things started changing and some people cracked early on under pressure. But I have sailed along fine because of J. Anyways, I do really want to do well in my exams and get into the course I am passionate in for university. So I am ready to push myself in the next few months leading up to all the exams as well as create precious memories in my last year of formal schooling. With this, I start a new chapter in this book and if there’s anyone reading this, thank you for tuning into my life and take my hands for another jolly good ride!
Love, W
Anyways, this is the year 2018 ( and I have officially stepped into my twenties!!! D: Turned 20 this last 3rd June :’D ) and since I last posted in 2016, I have grown a lot more than I had planned to. XD And the next few months, I expect to grow even more. It will be a crazy ride as I prepare for A levels, SAT, BMAT and all the UNI admission processes. Yes, I am finally going uni!!!! I actually did badly in my first year of JC so I repeated in 2017 and only advanced to second year this year. So instead of graduating last year, I am only starting out on my uni admission process now. It took me some time to really come to terms with lagging a year behind but I have really learnt that it’s not about how long it takes me but it’s me getting to the goal at my own pace. And now sometimes I am even glad that I made the decision to stay a year behind because the people I have met in my new batch are so very precious. (Ok lah maybe not people lol like one or two) I have gotten through my second time first year very smoothly all thanks to my new clique in my new class. I couldn’t be more grateful to them. But the last six months this year though have been pretty different. Things started changing and some people cracked early on under pressure. But I have sailed along fine because of J. Anyways, I do really want to do well in my exams and get into the course I am passionate in for university. So I am ready to push myself in the next few months leading up to all the exams as well as create precious memories in my last year of formal schooling. With this, I start a new chapter in this book and if there’s anyone reading this, thank you for tuning into my life and take my hands for another jolly good ride!
Love, W
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