It has been such a longggg time since i updated. Haizzz. Well tbh no one actually reads this so I guess it doesn't really matter but somehow i just feel like i need to …?? Haha Anyways let's see BIG events that happened so far (In chronological order)
1) Math and CSP TA
2) Dad's operation
3) National Camp
4) POP
5) SPA
6) 1st PDS Training
and that's it. Nothing much… except that tomorrow is 2nd PDS training!! Woo!!! PDS is pretty fun and interesting for me, somewhat like a stress reliever. :> (part Bs are extremely fun to be with<3)
Shall talk briefly about each "big" event : TAs went better than i thought. I know that once again, I am going to fail my math but i will say that regardless of the results (esp M1) I am going to be damn proud of myself because i actually put in a lot of hard work this time round! Hopefully i can pass for EYA. (Of course, going to work even harder) I now have motivations for me to work hard for EYA :D so ye I hope my enthusiasm wont die out quickly huehue
Dad's operation went fine as well and he's recovering very quickly now. Hopefully, he will recover to the fullest.
National camp was THE CAMP. Yup THE CAMP. Not just a camp but THE camp. Second best camp after OBS. <3 I swear our division had so much chemistry :'D AHAHAhahhha I still remember how the guys were laughing at us (girls) for crying on the last day but they themselves were teary *awwww* I like how after a week, our whatsapp group is still going strong (not to mention the many many mini sub grps as well XD ). Hopefully we can continue being good friends this way. Imagine how cool it would be if we all go back as volunteers in NAT CAMP 2016??? (wait and watch it happen :D )
Went back to school straight after NAT CAMP and arrived just when it was study block. (hah! managed to skip lessons woo!) I wasn't planning to go back but somehow i knew that they needed me there for POP (passing out parade for sec 4s). I can literally read their mind and true enough they needed me desperately. They even cried… shall not elaborate much. Another reason that i was glad that i went is because of what happened to CIP on sunday ( while i was still in camp ) . At least the teachers scolded me more and not my batch mates. I can take scoldings better than them so yeah.
SPA was horrible. I went in like 20 mins late and couldn't finish and yup it was basically the most screwed up paper of the term. *cue claps* :(
Looking forward to tomorrow PDS training!!!
Wednesday, 27 August 2014
Monday, 11 August 2014
I miss you dearly
Tonight is one of those rough nights. Rough rough nights that make tears fall down your face and make your screams die right before it comes out of your throats. Rough rough nights that only the sound of silent crying is heard. Rough rough nights when all the memories replay on the ceiling (that you have been staring at for the past half an hour or so). I hate those nights. Tonight is one of those rough nights that makes my heart to be in so much pain that i clasp the left area of my chest tightly till i feel numb.
I miss you so dearly. I do. I do. I remember the first time we met. I remember the first we time we talked. The first time we laughed together. After meeting you, my universe changed. I started to wonder how i could have survived all these while without you. It felt like i couldn't breathe for another moment without you. I remember running to you when i felt like crying. I remember wanting to be hugged by you when i needed reassurance. I remember too … you running to me as you were crying. I also remember you looking for reassurance in my words to you. You were my pillar of strength and i thought i was yours… Then i realized i wasn't a pillar. I was one of those benches in the park. The ones that you sit on when you are so sick and tired of walking. The ones that you sweat on after running around the park. The ones that you leave after you are done. Done resting. When you are ready to move on, you just leave so easily. Poor bench. All it is left with is the marks you leave behind. Your sweat. Your touch. Your scent. You are gone. I was that bench.
I wonder if once in awhile, you think of that bench? If once in a while, you are grateful for that bench's existence or it just goes unnoticed? As usual. Or do you just unconsciously sit on it when your legs are burning after a long run? I am happy just being that bench. I do sometimes wish of course that i was the pillar.
But,
"Apparently the world is not a wish granting factory." ~ The Fault In Our Stars
I miss you so dearly. I do. I do. I remember the first time we met. I remember the first we time we talked. The first time we laughed together. After meeting you, my universe changed. I started to wonder how i could have survived all these while without you. It felt like i couldn't breathe for another moment without you. I remember running to you when i felt like crying. I remember wanting to be hugged by you when i needed reassurance. I remember too … you running to me as you were crying. I also remember you looking for reassurance in my words to you. You were my pillar of strength and i thought i was yours… Then i realized i wasn't a pillar. I was one of those benches in the park. The ones that you sit on when you are so sick and tired of walking. The ones that you sweat on after running around the park. The ones that you leave after you are done. Done resting. When you are ready to move on, you just leave so easily. Poor bench. All it is left with is the marks you leave behind. Your sweat. Your touch. Your scent. You are gone. I was that bench.
I wonder if once in awhile, you think of that bench? If once in a while, you are grateful for that bench's existence or it just goes unnoticed? As usual. Or do you just unconsciously sit on it when your legs are burning after a long run? I am happy just being that bench. I do sometimes wish of course that i was the pillar.
But,
"Apparently the world is not a wish granting factory." ~ The Fault In Our Stars
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