How hurt must you have felt?
How painful was it for you to endure?
How lonely were you?
How did you manage to hold on for so long?
How did you keep it all inside?
How scared were you at that exact moment?
How did you ever ever manage to do it?
How much did you regret?
How did it feel in those final moments?
The journey must have been too hard on you, I believe. I wonder how you are finally able to let it all go because I never had the courage to. I had thoughts before, lots of them but never was I brave enough to follow through. I wish you had a different kind of courage though. It would have been better if you had chose a different path. The path you chose, I dare not judge whether its right or wrong, but I wish you chose a different path. If there's such a thing as a second shot, I hope you get a beautiful life and that you will live beautifully as you had wished in this life. If not, I hope you are happy wherever you are now. I pray for you, with all my sincerity, may you be happy and may you nor any other people have to go through terrifying ordeals alone again.
Rest in peace.
Tuesday, 7 July 2015
Friday, 3 July 2015
First Week
Ok, so I haven't updated in a really really really long time haha. It's actually 90% due to my laziness and 10% due to my laptop being sent to the "hospital" for the first three weeks of June hols.
To sum up my June hols, it has been a blast. I am glad I really got to recharge myself fully and that I did get work done so good job to me and I also had quite a good balance between staying at home to enjoy lazing around and lepaking around town. So yes both March and June hols this year has been one of the greatest ever for me.
So even though it feels like yesterday was the first day of holidays, today is actually the last school day of the first school week haiz. Time is ticking by so quickly man. It has only been the first week but it has been really filled with events from me falling sick for the first time in four years to having to avoid juniors for NCC day. >(
Firstly, Monday was great because both my Chemistry and History teachers were on leave so I had like four free blocks :D By the time it was CCA, I felt dead because I was too tired from sleeping. Hey it happens! I was actually dragging myself through the whole session but luckily I managed to excuse myself! Ha! I sat out to accompany the sick people party because I didn't want them to be alone and partly because I didn't want to play captains ball. :P AND part As standards actually improved contradictory to my expectation so very proud and happy :")
Tuesday was okayish but I started feeling albeit weird at night which led to my first fever in four years on Wednesdays. I came to school but started feeling giddy and nauseous by like second block after recess. Then nearing the end of last block, I felt damn warm like I was burning so I checked my temp and it was 38.4 degree celsius. :( I took a cab home because I felt like I was gonna die. I really felt damn horrible like I thought I was gonna die TT
So I got a free day to myself on Thursday! It was pretty fun hehe. Then today I came back because I didn't want to miss out on my last NCC day as a cadet. <3 I only have one word to describe today : crazy. Thanks to part Cs who were being crazily enthusiastic and being so abnormal but haha you really made me laugh and happy so thank you for making my last NCC day a great and memorable one. If anything, I am grateful for all the crazy greetings you gave me and for staring at me in diam while i was eating XD
So yeah. This has been my crazy first week of term 3 and I hope everyone is enjoying theirs and hang in there because this is gonna one crazy ride batchies!! (Can you imagine 10 weeks with lots of holidays and having to wrap up all the syllabuses and revisions and be prepared for O levels and EYAs??? No?? ME NEITHER!!!)
Have a great weekend.
P.S. Part As I actually wanted to meet you guys and made you greet me today :( Cause first and last NCC day with you guys.
P.P.S. If there are any part Cs reading this, please help me thank your platoon for being a crazy bunch <3
To sum up my June hols, it has been a blast. I am glad I really got to recharge myself fully and that I did get work done so good job to me and I also had quite a good balance between staying at home to enjoy lazing around and lepaking around town. So yes both March and June hols this year has been one of the greatest ever for me.
So even though it feels like yesterday was the first day of holidays, today is actually the last school day of the first school week haiz. Time is ticking by so quickly man. It has only been the first week but it has been really filled with events from me falling sick for the first time in four years to having to avoid juniors for NCC day. >(
Firstly, Monday was great because both my Chemistry and History teachers were on leave so I had like four free blocks :D By the time it was CCA, I felt dead because I was too tired from sleeping. Hey it happens! I was actually dragging myself through the whole session but luckily I managed to excuse myself! Ha! I sat out to accompany the sick people party because I didn't want them to be alone and partly because I didn't want to play captains ball. :P AND part As standards actually improved contradictory to my expectation so very proud and happy :")
Tuesday was okayish but I started feeling albeit weird at night which led to my first fever in four years on Wednesdays. I came to school but started feeling giddy and nauseous by like second block after recess. Then nearing the end of last block, I felt damn warm like I was burning so I checked my temp and it was 38.4 degree celsius. :( I took a cab home because I felt like I was gonna die. I really felt damn horrible like I thought I was gonna die TT
So I got a free day to myself on Thursday! It was pretty fun hehe. Then today I came back because I didn't want to miss out on my last NCC day as a cadet. <3 I only have one word to describe today : crazy. Thanks to part Cs who were being crazily enthusiastic and being so abnormal but haha you really made me laugh and happy so thank you for making my last NCC day a great and memorable one. If anything, I am grateful for all the crazy greetings you gave me and for staring at me in diam while i was eating XD
So yeah. This has been my crazy first week of term 3 and I hope everyone is enjoying theirs and hang in there because this is gonna one crazy ride batchies!! (Can you imagine 10 weeks with lots of holidays and having to wrap up all the syllabuses and revisions and be prepared for O levels and EYAs??? No?? ME NEITHER!!!)
Have a great weekend.
P.S. Part As I actually wanted to meet you guys and made you greet me today :( Cause first and last NCC day with you guys.
P.P.S. If there are any part Cs reading this, please help me thank your platoon for being a crazy bunch <3
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