it's just... it's just these festive days that I really look forward to because i like how everyone just smiles and wishes to each other. :) Cheesy? Anyways, spent today at USS. Haha they have been really upgrading the facilities + adding in new touches since the last six months! I really enjoyed today because I spent it with my family and though I don't really get along well with them, it's at least comforting to have one by my side ... I wished ppl (some special ones) Happy Christmas Eve yesterday and I really really sincerely was happy that they in return wished me Merry Christmas at exactly midnight. It was sort of like reassurance to me that as much as they mean a lot to me, I meant a lot to them as well :)
It's kind of weird how this year has really been a spicy year cause I expected it to be the peak of my RGS life and was really looking forward to it and then looking at it now, there's just six days left and yet nothing I expected, nothing, has yet happened. It's even more terrifying how things have actually been a complete opposite of how I imagined it would be. It's kind of saddening.
It's not actually a sad feeling I guess (?) cause I don't legit feel sad but rather more of mix feelings like regret, disappointment, despair and hurt ... The 2014 I imagined and the 2014 I was in is two very different worlds and after experiencing this, I dare not say I have matured so much more but I can confidently say I have learnt so much more.
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