Bossy

So yesterday was... weird. I was quite hyped up you know "yay! Training." And then it just ended on a really weird note... I am still not quite sure whether it was a good thing or a bad thing that I followed them to "crap talk" after rehearsal. I knew because I went. I wouldn't have known if I didn't go. I would still have to know it sooner or later anyways but somehow after knowing I wish I knew later. Just like the SSC story. I told them I was fine because what else do you want me to tell you??? Oh I am not fine. I am dying inside. I need to cry. 
I don't trust you enough to show you that side of me again. 
Anyways I am still in a dazed mood because it happened so quickly. I should have known. 

It's funny though the people I thought of at that moment 

The people I wanted to run to 

The people I wanted to talk to 

The people I wanted to cry on 

It's exactly two people. 

"I know it's your personality. You are DOMINEERING but I understand."
assert one's will over another in an arrogant way.
You don't because firstly I am not domineering. 

"I hope you know who's in-charge. She's the one in-charge after all."

You said you won't play ranks. 

"You didn't give her ANY opportunity to talk."

So you want me to wait for her to finally muster up the courage to be able to start commanding while poor part X has to stand in sedia?

FYI, she didn't talk much even when I completely stopped and she was forced to. 

"If you're willing to change it, there would be no more problems."

Who are you to tell me to change?

"Person A and B has problems working with each other because person A is bossy."

All I want to say to you is, "Hi, I am uh... still in the room and my perfectly working ears can hear everything you are saying?"

"Don't be hurt okay?"

Easy for you to say, you aren't in my situation. 

"Are you okay?"

When I answered "uh...yeah", you said "fine if you are gonna answer it like that." Do you expect me to start ranting  and crying when I don't trust you anymore...?

To B, this is what I wanna say to you :

Hi. It might have hurt lesser if you had told me in my face first. It was painful finding it out from others about me. Yes, it's about me. I don't see any reasons why you need to tell others about me. Rmbr when I said to just voice out any opinions you were so quiet. You were someone that still earned basic respect from me because I thought you were better than others but not anymore. Like someone said I hope you know that what you did was a cowardly act. 

It's weird how I remember every single sentence, word to word, though I was on the verge of breaking down. I remember that when I first heard it my mind went blank. It was shut down. Everything only came when I was on the bus. It was too late to break down by then.  

"Friends are number one on the list of 'things you think are a must have in life but are actually dragging you down'."