All over the place

I have no idea what I am feeling. I am just feeling all over the place. I have a freaking competition this coming Saturday. And I can't even concentrate on that. But the competition IS the main cause in stirring my feelings. So I guess come this Saturday and I would be free of a burden on my shoulder? Finally I can let go of many things? Okay actually the thing is I am caring too much. My other group of friends tell me that. And then I reflected and realized that I really really gave up too much time for that certain group of people.p I am trying to change for the better. But it's hard. It's really getting harder and harder by the days. But I am trying as well. I am trying to change and not hurt anyone around me. I have hurt enough people haven't I?