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So...I guess I can finally understand things now. I am even more scared now. I only have two weeks left sure. But that two weeks is going to be a torture man. When you want someone to disappear from your life two weeks to do that is pretty long. On a brighter note I have come to a conclusion. Everything was my fault and I have to take responsibility for it. To take responsibility means I have no right to be hurt or upset. I have to make it up by letting them do whatever they please. Because after all I hurt them. As for myself I should become poker and things will be so much easier. I would just shut everyone out. Because it is easier. At times memories come back and it hurts because I know I can never recreate them or make new ones anymore. But it's okay I have no right to anyways. I prefer that memories come back though cause then I can at least remember that person. If I can I want to turn back time. Replay everything.