Finally….

So yay!!! Finally we finished the competition yesterday!! I was actually quite nervous but I didn't let it show. As nervous as I was, I was quite confident that i won't make any mistakes or drop the rifle. But… OMG OMG OMG I DROPPED THE RIFLE. AND IT WAS QUITE AT AN EARLY PART OF THE ROUTINE. I WAS DOING THIS THING CALLED 'WATERFALL' WHERE I LET GO OF THE RIFLE FROM MY LEFT HAND AND LET IT ROLL DOWN MY BACK AND MY LEFT HAND IS SUPPOSED TO CATCH IT BUT BUT BUT WHILE IT WAS ROLLING DOWN MY BACK I LOOKED AT THE AUDIENCE AND LOST FOCUS SO THE RIFLE DROPPED. It didn't drop all the way down to the floor so I was able to catch it without bending down whew… BUT I FELT SO FREAKED OUT. What was going through my mind was "freak I could fu* do it just now so many times why WHY WHY WHY??!!" but then i regained composure and told myself to forget about it. So i just went on with the routine as usual THEN AFTER WE ENDED I CRIED. I tried so hard not to because there were so many freaking people. But i just broke down. Ma'am x was super nice tho <3 She gave me this super "stern" and encouraging speech and told me to look in her eyes (haha i couldn't' cause i was crying) SHE WAS REALLY SUPER NICE <3 I AM SO GRATEFUL TOWARDS HER. It has been quite a great journey so far for the past five months and I am proud of us no matter what our results are. I don't give a damn towards haters because i myself know how much efforts the team has put in. I have consistently went for ALL trainings and really really have seen how much EVERYONE OF THE TEAM has put in their 150%. I am PROUD of EVERYONE. Sure not ALL has done their 150% but near the competition, ALL TRIED. Though at first there were people that didn't even put in any efforts or put in little efforts, near the competition date, i swear i saw EVERYONE TRIED. And I am freaking proud of that. <3<3<3 Looking forward to ORA, NDP AND NEXT YEAR'S PERFORMANCES. <3 WE CAN DO THIS!!!