And yes i know. I know that it's just a few months till we can go back to how we used to be. Or even in a better relationship but I am not so sure. I am not sure if this goodbye is really a prelude to a hello. Because I am scared. I am scared that I will lose you. Lose us. Haha is this like some kind of long distance bgr?? It's staring to sound like it haha. But it was hard. I spent the entire day thinking and thought that it was the best solution. Now I am regretting maybe it wasn't. It's just not me. I used to make decisions and never regret about them but now I regret a lot. Growing up makes me decide lots of stupid decisions.
To be honest I don't even know why I said goodbye when I wasn't even sure in the first place of whether I am confident enough to let go for a while. I really really don't know why the hell I did that. To be honest no reply came after my text so maybe just maybe she wanted a goodbye. Did I read things wrongly? Have I mistaken busy for ignoring? I am too scared to do anything. I am not sure what to do. Someone help me. I wish I hadn't initiated the goodbye. Because goodbyes are painful. Even when it's a prelude to a hello.
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