How much more to go???

I just want to talk to you so bad </3. I saw that you were online and i swear i almost typed out smth and almost sent it… I don't know apparently this is weird cause its weird to be so attached to a senior. But she means more than just a senior tho… It's as if she was my real older sister… Maybe cause i treated her like one so i am getting so affected by this separation. When i say how much more to go, i don't really know anymore cause say it's POP tmr, i really don't know what will happen to us. Will we return back to where we were or will we have to start afresh or will we return to strangers…

And for ytd and today, when i am not high or happy, I just get ridiculously sad and angry. Mostly anger. Like angry at everything and everyone… and then i will just sit there zoning out… When i am high like when i was watching drama or when i was fooling around in CPR course, i just get ridiculously high.

OMGOMOGMGOGOGMOGMOGMOG SORRY I AM HIGH AGAIN SEE LAH TWO SO DIFFERENT MOODS IN ONE POST GOSH. CPR was da bomb man. Omg that guy who was talking on the mic ended up singing "1,2,3,4 and save a life save a life" OMG so this apparently the speed of how fast we should perform CPR but it was so funny when he sang lololol. The instructor ended up laughing at me cause I couldn't press down properly to get a depth of 5cm and then i was just fooling around the entire time until i couldn't stop laughing. LOLOLOL. AND THEN AND THEN they told us to fill up a survey and gosh so embarrassing. Instead of writing my index number, i thought they asked for phone no and wrote down mine and then my classmate who was collecting the form was like "omg who is this idiot??? the one who wrote phone no instead of index??" AND THEN I WAS LIKE OMG ROLLED ON THE FLOOR. And and and when i was desperately trying to shade the no so that they wont be able to see the instructor came in front of me and JUST LAUGHED AND WAS LIKE "WAH SO DESPO. WANT US TO CALL U AH??" OMG MOST EMBARRASSING MOMENT IN Y3 SO FAR. OH GOD LIKE CAN U NOT. And then i ended up watching CLIF during chinese cause free block! It's so nice. Why didn't anyone tell me they were airing >:( gosh i missed out so much of my lyfe. Srsly tho CPR was the best. I wouldn't mind going for it again next year heh.