Troubles...

It's already five weeks into term 2 and our class haven't got into our deco yet… ALL other classes are pretty much done and we have NONE. I am supposed to get them to start doing everything but because of PDS comp and what happened to me after i couldn't…. i lost track of everything … which is why i felt guilty and "spring cleaned" the class ytd… And guess what we just got ourselves into a huge trouble… Almost all our subject teachers complained to our FT and now FT wants to talk to us (EXCO) on Fri plus she sent an email to ALL subj teachers including the LEVEL HEAD and talked about how we need discipline and she told me this morning that we need to start having punishments already… Everything seems to be going wrong right now… the class doesn't know much tho they got warning this morning. They are still laughing happily and making lots of noises during lessons. I feel like dying. I am probably going to get really scolded cause i am not setting a good example in class and i haven't done anything at all as a chairperson. Mrs Huang is probably very very disappointed in me rn… Also I feel bad because I feel like i am being a "traitor" in the sense that I am "telling on" them. Plus I nagged at them a lot ytd night and I felt like I was being a busybody. Now I ask myself "What the hell was I thinking when I wanted to be class chair?!?!" What if that time Stevie hasn't said anything and so I would have become a class secretary and someone else would be chair and would probably do way better than me ... But this kind of thinking won't get me anywhere. It's time I start correcting myself. I should do better way better than now and stop disappointing teachers. Sigh this is like a repeat of NCC. Me nagging and nagging and seniors chasing after me and me nagging at plat mates again and so the cycle goes on... That was two years ago and I stopped doing that this year. The start of the year I still did since I was worried Abt merger but near PDS comp I lost myself and I lost it all. And now I am back again except this time seniors aren't as crazy heh. But still it sucks trying to pass information down while trying not to sound naggy/spam their phones... And now my class. I just can't have a day of peace. As soon as I think there are no problems something crops up. Starting tmr I should start living up to expectations. No no starting now. Got to start with class deco. Heh I alrdy have a vague idea tho! Can do it after sch on fri b4 Chinese hehe. I CAN DO THIS HWAITING!!! 

"To be a leader, you have to show them what you want to teach them." ~ lion