It hurts me to see you like this...

I guess I am finally recovering… Not fully recovered but on a speedy recovery and i should be fine by the end of may…May is one hectic month cause everything is jam packed together and not forgetting TAs as well… Let's see, ORA, open house, TAs and ATC. These are really really huge events that i cannot afford to fail at all. I need to score well for TAs because i have to save my sem 1 since i did badly in term 1 and for ORA and open house, i need to make sure my PDS improves (gosh i have not been training for too long oh no) and and ATC, i need to really do well because heh i want to go SSC. So well May is busy and that should keep me occupied and not leave me to have weird thoughts about dying. Anyways, I am pretty sure I am getting better and better daily and its all thanks to certain people.

But now it seems like those people aren't doing very well instead of me… Like W, it has been so long since i last knew how she's doing but i can tell she isn't doing very well. Why? Because she looks so pale. Her face is pale as if she's very sick. I just hope she hasn't been pushing herself too much and remember to take regular breaks. R, well this one is like I don't know anymore LOL. This shu shu seems to be really really tired and all i can do is cheer him on. I am very worried about these two and if you ask me why, i honestly don't know. Maybe it's because they have helped me so much when I was all alone and I wouldn't have done it without them. Or maybe it's because i always always grow overly emotionally attached to people. Whichever it is, I just hope that they are feeling better. Well, at least they have people they can confide in so thats a good start. I just feel like this overly attached and clingy person. Heh. I feel so useless not being able to do anything but i am pretty sure that i won't be much of help even if I can do something so yeah…

Eh physics and SS papers are next mon and i don't really feel very prepped and thats a bad thing because I need to do well for both. All i can do is crazily study till mon and hope that the papers won't be set to a very difficult level. Sigh who am i kidding… Obv the papers will be hard...